I do not have my life together. Far from it! Like plenty of other millennials, I’ve got frantic duck syndrome: I’m gliding effortlessly through life on the surface, but if you take a closer look at what’s going on underneath, it’s a lot of manic flapping.
For a while now I’ve struggled with the idea that I’m not living ‘my best life’ and that, in all honesty, I have no idea what that even means. I look at girls who do 6am yoga, drink kale smoothies, say things like, “Avocado is life,” and think to myself, “I want to be like that!” I want to be an eco-warrior girl boss with great hair who knows how to style an oversized t-shirt! But I also want to be a million and one other things depending on what day you ask me.
Last year I packed up and moved to the Middle East in an effort to discover what the heck it is that will bring me inner contentment so I can finally put this quarter-life crisis to bed. While all of this travel and exposure to new experiences has given me a slightly better idea of what I want from my life, I’m no closer to actually getting there. Right now I still just have a fuzzy outline of an idea and no clue how to put it into action.
So I’m not one of those bloggers who has it all figured out. I’m not the kind of ‘influencer’ you’d look up to and aspire to be like. In fact, the whole point of this blog is to document my journey of trying to pin down how to find that Instagram-worthy contentment we’re all scrambling around looking for. I’m not looking for the ‘perfect’ life. No one has that, no matter how many avocados they eat or how many beaches they meditate on. I’m just looking for fulfilment.
It’s been a year since I quit my corporate job to chase my dreams around the globe. I’m not sure I’m any closer to catching them, but it’s been a blast so far am I’m looking forward to figuring out this crazy thing we call life with you guys by my side.
